Long time ago I found a group of people in Tallinn, consisting of all nationalities from italien to estonia, russian, german, and and and, who met once a week on a field to play football. It was so much fun – because it was a great mix of people who played fantastic and some like me who are happy to hit the ball somehow. And I was looking forward to the Saturdays to play again, knowing that it means 2 hours of real fun.
Then something happend – we started to play in a tournament. We signed all in, every one payed a share in and we started to play. Mostly we lost but nevertheless it was fun to play – at least for me. Sure I like winning more but it is not the most important. I played there to have fun. And in the beginning all was ok but then more and more it established that we had some players playing all the time and some who were outside more and more. The season is about to end now and I made a decision: I will not go on playing for this team in a tournament. I am actually sad about that but I guess it is the best solution.
Of course some players are much better than me. I never discuss that. But I wonder why I am in the team and pay my share just to be “allowed” to play some 10-15 minutes (i actually had games with less!) only. Yeah, this is egoistic. I do want to play like everyone. I mean, why am I part of Inter Tallinn? To watch others?
Funny, I thought for a long time the majority would think link I do but looks like I am wrong 🙂
Oh to make that clear: I just talk about the tournaments. In the fun on the saturdays (or how we call it: training) I am still in. Because then we all play 🙂 that is still a lot of fun.